It’s been a while
It’s strange how much of my time and attention everyday life is currently consuming.
Wake up, college, home, sleep. It’s all so monotonous, and I feel like I’m not doing enough.
However, I’m not confident enough to go anywhere on my own to initiate anything. I’ve wanted to start kickboxing for a long time, but I can’t summon up the courage to go and check it out.
I’m worried at how little confidence I actually have these days, because I am going to end up alone and boring. I have no ways of de-stressing, no viable hobbies and a fear of initiation. So what do I do?
I’d really like a parent to take me to these places, or a good friend, or just someone who I know will give me the courage to start up a new thing so I can continue going. It’s not the continual attendance which gets me, it’s the first step, the one where I have to ask about things, deal with new people alone that terrifies me, and I don’t know what to do…
